Nov 23 2009

A Year Ago

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This week is tough for me.  It’s much tougher than I thought it would be.  This post will explain in more detail, but Thanksgiving last year has probably forever tainted the day for me.  I have lots and lots to be thankful for so you can spare me the lectures, but although death is a part of life, it is no easier to deal with this year than it was a year ago.

I don’t have anything spectacular to say today and I may not have much to say this week, but I miss my Grandma.  I miss my Mom and hate that I’m here and not with her to spend this season together, remembering Grandma.  There is a reason for everything, but I struggle to find it sometimes.  I struggle to see the point.

My plans and desires….are just that….MINE.  Not always His and while I respect that, I do not have to like it.

I miss you Grandma…..Today and every day!

I made this video last year…..I just feel like watching again.

Join me.

  • toby'smom

    Brings back good memories, till the bad sets in. I miss my momma too..

    • http://intensedebate.com/people/Pastor_T Pastor_T

      Praying the bad doesn't set in….knowing there is plenty good about Grandma to remember.

  • brandi

    I watched my grandmother take her last breath on Thanksgiving day in 1995, very HARD day but the hope is, it does get better!! I do enjoy Thanksgiving now but I still will always remember :-) her along w/the last memory…Praying for you and your family that w/each passing year the pain will ease but her memory will always be cherished!!! *hugs* friend!!

    • http://intensedebate.com/people/Pastor_T Pastor_T

      Your prayers are appreciated. The first year after, I imagine, is always hard.

  • Shellie (baylormum)

    First, let me say, I miss your tweets. Second, I have been really behind on reading & catching up on blogs. Being without internet for 7 weeks was almost too much! Third, that baby is getting big. Fourth, the Steelers are making me very very sad. :(

    Mostly, though, it's ok to have tough days. Holidays. Mondays. Saturdays. Any days. I have never seen an etiquette rule on grieving. I miss my maternal grandmother and she passed away 10 years ago next month. I learned so much from her growing up. So much as an adult. She was my go-to confidant. I felt closer to her than my own mother (from whom I am estranged). That's a whole grieving process, too, when the person is still alive. My paternal grandmother was a tough German! She made the best pies & cookies! Never used a measuring cup or recipe. My life is so much richer because of these ladies in my life. I miss them dearly & just sometimes feel I didn't learn enough from them. And, yet, I still learn from them. WWGD? (what would Grandma do)! Ha!

    Rest in God's arms. With your mother. Even though you are an ocean apart you still have that connection with your faith in God. And He will comfort you both.

    • http://intensedebate.com/people/Pastor_T Pastor_T

      Hey, good to see ya!!
      I don't miss Twitter at all, but I do miss a few of ya :-) .
      Yes, he's a GIANT :D .
      The Steelers…..Well, I'd rather not talk about it :-(

      Awesome sentence…resting with my Mom with our faith in God!! Thanks for that! So true!

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