Yesterday I said that I was taking a break for a few days.  It never fails that if I say that, my mind fills and I just can’t help it.  So, here ya go:

Satan is bigger than I am and should I choose to fight him, I will lose.

Every day the battle within me is whether I should fight him or not.

Every day!

I get so tired….so, so tired.

You don’t understand!  Maybe you do!  But some days I just can’t stand it.

Satan wants badly to affect my days.  I think he laughs at my struggles.

He also knows what I have done in my life.  He knows of my lies; he knows of my cheating; he knows of the pain I have caused others.

He knows I can’t escape my past.  He knows it and wants it to be strong in my mind EVERY DAY.

Satan is bigger than I am

But God is even bigger.

I know this!

Satan, you can’t have me.

My God saved me from my past so I don’t have anything to escape from.

My God controls me.  I am His and He is mine!  Through Him I can accomplish anything!

My mind is His!

My heart is His.

GO TO HELL SATAN!

There will be days where you think you have me; when you smile cuz you think I am weak.

Yes, Satan, I am weak; I am broken, but you’re not just dealing with me.

Jesus Christ has my back and even as I sit, weak and broken, He is my strength.

Do you hear me Satan?

The same power that rose from the grave is in me!

I’m not the boy you used to toy with.

I’m not the lost soul that let you control his every thought.

I’m not that guy.

He is dead!

He went into the water and I came up.

New with the power of Christ within me.

Never again!

Dear God,

My heart is yours!  My mind is yours!  No one else will do.  There is no other place I want to go.  Fill me with Your Grace.  I need you!  Give me strength to NOT fight.  Give me the strength to say no, raise up my hands and let you fight for me.

Thank you Jesus!  Thank You for pulling me out of the depths of evil living.  Thank You for making me new.  Thank you for the awesome people you have put around me.  Thank you for covering my family with Your love.  Pull them closer to you Lord.  I pray their hearts are open to you.  I pray they come Home.

Lord, work in the hearts of those who come here.  Lord be with them all, but Lord, for those who come here and just read and leave…..Lord, they’re hurting.  I feel their pain.  I know it’s hard for them Lord.  Give them peace; give them comfort; weigh heavily on their hearts today Lord.  Bring them Home!

It’s in Your Son’s precious name I pray!

Amen!

I know you’re here!  You are why I write every day.  You are why I live. I know you’re lost.

I know how hard it is.  I know what it’s like to have a life you’re ashamed of.  I know what it’s like to cry every time you go to a church.  That sin will eat you alive until you give it to Him.  Accept Him into your heart.  Ask Him to forgive you.  LIVE with Him!

Life is so much better!  He will never let you go.

He loves you!  I love you!  And if you need help in your walk, you let me know.

Email me!  No more “I’ll start tomorrows”.  Today!

PEACE!