Wow, it has been quite a week. As of my last blog post, I asked you to pray that my Grandma would hold on to life long enough for my Mom, sister and I to get back to Indiana to say goodbye. As is sometimes the case, God’s plans, while not always in line with our desires, are always designed in our best interests. Grandma passed away on Thanksgiving night….and we grieve. We’re sad that we weren’t able to see her alive one more time; to say goodbye. I say, should we drop to our knees and say a prayer, we can speak to her every day.
I have cried and cried and watched my family cry and cry. That’s how we deal with loss. It is sad to know I won’t see Grandma on this earth anymore. But I’m done being sad. God gave this world 82 years to enjoy a great woman, friend, sister, Mother, and yes, Grandma. In the end, we must begin again. In the end, He waited until we had a chance to give thanks on Thanksgiving, to take her to be with Him. In the end, He took my Mom and sister from a place where they were sure to watch her suffer to take a breath, and put them here with us, surrounded by love and the heart healing sounds of children laughing. In the end, He speaks to us softly and comforts us with the knowledge that in Heaven, there is no cancer; there is no pain; there is no suffering. Every breath Grandma takes is one of wonder and beauty; the cleanest, purest air one could imagine, filling the lungs that are no longer damaged, in a body that shows no signs of 82 years of wear and tear. Grandma has done what we all need to do….In the end, she is beginning again.
I was going to make this a separate posts, but it fits so well here, I’ll put it where it belongs. It is so amazing to watch God at work. God isn’t gonna let us be sad for long and only He knows how to move us past the grief. As some of you know, I was scheduled to have a vasectomy on December 10th. Well, it seems that God has a sense of humor also. Monday, yes the day of Grandma’s service, Ria and I found out we need a bigger car. Well Ria and I actually knew sooner, but it was Monday that we got word from a doctor that around August or September of 2009 we will welcome family member #5 to this house. See where I’m going with this??? In the end…..YES, we MUST begin again. In the end, God knows if there is one thing to sooth my Mother’s heart, it is to know there is a baby coming. Now then, this must be good for Ria and I somehow and I’m sure He’ll give us that info soon, but in the meantime, your prayers are AGAIN appreciated. (That last line was supposed to be funny…we’re not depressed
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So, now I need to call the urology clinic and cancel my surgery. What’s the point, right? LOL!
Off we go….to begin again!
Thank you Grandma!! Thank You Lord!
